I don’t like the ” new age movement”. I mean the idea of the movement is great but the delivery of the message always leaves me dry. You know what I’m talking about. I’m talking about all the clichés that are thrown around by people who consider themselves to be on a spiritual journey. Clichés like ” feel the light” or “all you have to do is believe ” or “raise your vibration” etc etc etc. Now these statements may be and pretty much are indeed true but they are like everything in the modern world. Incomplete. They are incomplete and like a piano without keys they are useless. Just slogans like “change you can believe in”. Empty words from many many eons ago that used to have real meaning. Spirituality and the occult go hand in hand. One cannot know how to raise their vibrations regardless of how much they have read or how many youtube videos they have watched unless and until they have been initiated into the occult. They can only understand from the position of where they are. I find these dry words to be almost anti productive because from what I see….these empty words only produce empty parrots that have never been tried and have never been through the spiritual fire. These clichés make it easy for any mentally deficient individual to appear as someone that is spiritual and perhaps even enlightened. Yet the reality is that without an initiation into the occult and without going through the spiritual fire of suffering and suffering consciously one is simply in the bullshit business. While it is true that there are some with different degrees of knowledge and skill…the new age movement has produced thousands of pseudo psychics and astrologers and all different kinds of utopian philosophers preaching half truths and getting wealthy with absolutely no experience in the matter of spirituality. I have a good rule of thumb for the people when they are looking for a spiritual teacher. The first question a seeker should ask is: So…. Can you tell me about your suffering?
My first true meditation was probably the scariest thing I have ever done. In the beginning it was scary as hell just trying to meditate. My mind would become completely black and I would get the sensation that I ( my mind) was flying through absolute darkness for miles and miles and eventually I would always come to this place where I knew that if I kept going I would go over a cliff and that kept me horrified for a long time. I tried many forms of meditation. Strangely but not really …I was taught meditation by a piano teacher. One day I had the notion to try piano lessons. I was in Europe at the time. Somehow the instructor and I got away from the piano and into meditation? I mean she put me through a ritual with blessings etc. You know all the pomp and circumstance that a dramatic and very significant event should have I suppose. I remember she had me come to her place and she had the candles going and meditation music and there was this big ass sunflower. I found that sunflower to be intriguing for some reason. I forgot what she told me the sunflower meant. Anyway…she told me that what I was about to be taught was called transcendental meditation. This is the meditation that I use today. I later did some research and discovered that there had been studies and tests done on this particular type of meditation. Results showed mind blowing differences in students intelligence after a few months of this type of meditation. Now I’m not 100% certain this is exactly what I was taught. I do believe it is close to what I was taught. It had the same name. Transcendental meditation. I assume ( yeah I know) that what I was taught… only someone who was where I was at the time in their spiritual journey would receive. I mean…it was meant that a piano teacher would teach me meditation? She never taught me piano? I have been teaching myself piano (finally) for the last 2 years. I was given a special word to chant and think about. This special word is what I’m not sure if others would receive or not because of the occult. The art of this particular type of meditation is not to try to stop or control the thoughts but to simply witness them. To let them flow and simply observe them. The word given was used as an anchor to bring one back if they drifted to far into thought. The word reminded one that they were meditating and it acted as the tonal center. Probably after a few months I didn’t chant so much verbally as mentally. Today I rarely if ever chant verbally. So….I noticed that after receiving this teaching on meditation I could feel that something was indeed happening with me internally. I used to be extremely afraid in my attempts to meditate because of the darkness and that cliff. I would always come out of it sweating and shaking when I reached that cliff because that cliff was like death and at the time I feared it greatly. After doing this new form of meditation for a while I noticed my courage growing and I swore that one day I’d go over that cliff. Today I realize that even while my mind was being hurled through that darkness (space) I was indeed in some degree of meditation. Even before I met the piano teacher. I never counted it as meditation though. It to me was like going to the store at 2 am in the middle of gang territory. You’re not at the store until you get there. In my mind I wasn’t in meditation until I let myself fall off of that cliff into that forevermore darkness? Meditation to me was what happened the day I went over that cliff. I used to have nightmares about what was beyond that cliff and I’d awake petrified. Now….understand: I never saw a cliff? I only sensed a cliff. I sensed that if I traveled any further I’d plunge over a cliff into even greater darkness. Yes….believe it when I say that my very first experience of meditation was probably the scariest thing I have ever done in my life. I once sat at a train stop awaiting the command to end it all just to prove my willingness and worthiness to go beyond? I have been in initiations where I thought I would die and I gave up my life willingly. Alas they were only tests and they were never as scary as that cliff. Eventually I went over. It surely was another moment for me…in this lifetime….where I literally died. So….I am writing this post so that my fellow meditators understand that they should not try to restrict their thoughts in any way during meditation. Only observe them. Witness them. In this way we can discuss and experiment and grow. If you are trying not to have thoughts during meditation….you are doing it wrong. Just choose a word as your “anchor” and let the thoughts flow freely while gently saying or thinking your anchor word. OM will do for now. In our group discussions I am your anchor. Now there have been many articles written on the benefits of meditation so I will not list the many benefits available. I will mention 2 major and most important benefits. 1. Meditation is the bridge to God and God consciousness. 2. Meditation disrupts the Matrix. Without meditation the impossible will always be impossible. Before I end I will give you another excellent meditation to do on your own. It is called “The Think away”. Sit in a chair that allows you to sit straight. Close your eyes. Place your hands on your lap and touch the thumbs of each hand with the pointer finger of each hand and begin to think away your body parts. Think away the feet. Think away the ankle and calves. Think away the knees. Do this until you reach and think away the head. If successful you will become pure mind in an ocean of black space. This is how you travel. The cliff is a landmark. If you get there you have accomplished a great deed.
Sitting here listening to music for my chakras…. still feeling the bliss from todays meditation. Innocent and amazed as always…grateful and humble as always. LIFE . This thing called life…. the most paradoxical and radical idea ever conceived. I used to do a meditation called ” the think away”. You begin with your toes and simply think them away as if they no longer exist. Then you move to your feet and think them away. Then your ankles, legs and on until you think away the head. If successful in this particular meditation one will be left with pure mind in absolute silence and darkness. The earth was void?… and God said “let there be light”. You notice how there are all these police shows, court shows, hospital shows etc on television? You got Law and Order, CSI, NCIS ,COPS , Judge Judy , American Justice , House, E. R.,Homeland Security and on and on… right? The tv creates reality and the tv screen maintains reality… but not absolute reality… the reality that someone created and controls. When you close your eyes you see darkness. This darkness (in meditation, metaphysics, and magic) is simply a screen for the mind to create… to project and protect absolute reality. The images we see all day define our reality…. our temporal and terrestrial reality. So does the collective consciousness. If the collective consciousness sees law and order shows, images etc all day everyday this becomes reality. What came first… the chicken or the egg? One thing is certain…. the chicken can crush or nurture the egg? You are gods ( just as a caterpillar is a butterfly) and God is God (just as your children are you)? You must project on the screen of creation the images…the reality that you wish to see… collectively… since you have not evolved as a species…since you are still caterpillars on the road. You must see riot police throwing down their shields and weapons. You must see the world full of love and peace. You must see the world full of bliss and harmony… with abundance of fruits… agricultural, material and spiritual… for everyone? Lao Tzu said that a world vision held in the mind of an evolved individual helps bring that vision into reality. He is correct. You must think away the body until you are nothing but the mind. Then collectively you must hold the image of a harmonious planet on the dark screen of creation until manifestation. The earth was void and dark and God said ” Let there be light”.